Heya lads! I'm fucking drunk. And I haven't used this fucking blog in about six years so why fucking not. No one is following this stupid blog anyway, and quarantine is making me so GODDAMN BORED! I haven't seen any of my friends in about a month.
I cannot believe that I actually made this shit and was so pretentious about it. I was fourteen years old and I was SO GODDAMN PRETENTIOUS! Posting reviews for everyone and their mother. Who cares. I certainly didn't. I just wanted attention, whereas now I would do anything not to be have anyone's eyes on me. It's interesting how quickly we change. Does anyone even think about that or do we just let the time pass? Seven years ago, I was stealing boys' jackets in the hope I could catch their attention, and now I'm fucking gay. Woop de doo. A goddamn lesbian! Could anyone have guessed that? (If any of my ex-boyfriends ever see this, you're not allowed to say SHIT, lol)
The amount of shit I have been through since my last post is fucking insane. I don't even know if I'm legally allowed to say but who knows that this blog belongs to me so whatever. I got mugged, assaulted, fucking knifed - I suppose I've had a crazy few years. But I've also fallen in love, I've made art that I'm finally proud of, I've learned, I've grown - and I wouldn't trade that for any of the bad shit. Life is so incredible and beautiful, it just sticks in your mind and won't let go. It's incredibly sad at times, but during those times you just have to remember the times when it was so uplifting and envision when it will be uplifting again.
Anyway, just as a check-in - what are we all doing in quarantine? Myself personally, I am working a freelance gig while finishing my thesis. BUT I am also trying to finesse my skills at the following:
1) I love wine, so I want to become a wine connoisseur - which just translates into me drinking boatloads of malbecs and pinot noirs.
2) I am giving myself tattoos! Not while drunk, as that seems to be a conflict of interest.
3) I will learn how to roller skate. This has not happened yet but I ordered roller skates, so it will happen soon.
4) I am becoming very close to a number of people I may not have if this pandemic had never happened.
5) I went to Mexico!
I am extraordinarily excited to read this in the future (with my track record, I'll be 30 the next time I check this blog. Will Blogger even exist then? When I used it, it was called Blogspot. What else will change? Will the world still exist or will it be eaten alive by global warming and war? How depressing ;). Starting my sixth glass of pinot noir now, folks!
I love you all. If you somehow see this, and knew me in high school, know that I remember you fondly.
Sionara,
lots of love,
Cleo
